uchi e kaeritai

it means, i want to go home.. things here in manila are a bit going down.. first, my job is getting uninteresting, Im begining to have doubts about my growth in this company I am working for. That's because I'm currently involved in a project I don't have any interest in. Second is this place where I live in. its very unpleasant and Im having trouble agreeing with some policies. then theres the traffic, the people, the food, the lcd advertisement inside buses, the shity music on the radio, the long long lines... its during times like this that I miss my hometown most. my family, my house, our dogs, the food (in hefty servings not like here), my friends, the music, the live gigs, strolling in our small mall..........

a bad day

the day started like this. so I got in the office pretty early today. I opened the pc, read the mail and saw a notice from our logbox (yep our loxbox does that), it said, I was unable to login yesterday and I was considered absent. I said "there must be something I can do about this". So I went to my manager and asked him what I could do. the look on his face was not that pleasant, he was like.. "try to go to the hr". so I did. I went to our hr and asked what I could do. to my surprise. there was nothing I could do to revoke what happened. I was like $#!%. so I donated a whole days work is that it?........(okay, I said something more polite).. she said there was nothing she could do. Man. I felt mixed emotions. I got back to my desk feeling stupid, sorry (I kind of gave an impolite gesture to our hr), and angry, not knowing at who I was angry with. So I tried to review our online policy page like a lawyer trying to find a hole in the system. and there it said that if in case you forget to login, you will be considered absent ... okay then, no use crying over spilled milk.

scrapes and scapes

here's some view to get the mood down

start the rant

I now firmly believe. hell smells like garlic..............

anyway.. with that aside.. I would like to say something more or less a bit important.. There is one thing I kind of regret. its not getting into a good university.. When I was in high school, my parents never failed to encourage me to get into a a good university, most of my classmates were also trying to do it. so why not me? cause I have a tendency to not want to do what everybody else is doing, thats why.. You know, when we were young we sort of have this type of ideals. I said to myself. I'm not gonna learn more stuff even if I get into a good university. getting smart was a matter of choice. I can be as smart as those kids if I just studied hard enough, even in an unknown university.... anyway I was not into all that school spirit stuff.. Then after graduation. I got this chance of studying in UP.. there I realized the difference.. here it is... Its the people you meet in these schools that make the difference.. people who can make you change how you think just by talking to them.. these are the people who aspire to be world leaders (seriously).. its through conversations with these people that you learn more, you get to know what you want to be, what you want to do, what you can do... so there it is.. yes you can be as smart or smarter than the smartest person from the top universities... but then wouldn't it be better if you can meet them?

a love poem

I read this poem from a comic book called "david chelsea in love"

Why do you have to ask?
are you a brand new fool?
I'm the way you feel when she treats you cruel!
I've got a sad clown face and a pair of horns..
because you're wishin' that you'd never ever ever been born
you don't suit her taste
she don't like your face
she thinks you're toxic waste
so you've been replaced!

you're twenty three years old
it's time that you been told..
the way to hold on to your woman is to treat her cold

see, if you fall in love
you're gonna be in dutch
you better start off with a woman you don't like that much

and if you say "i love you"
then she''ll say "no thanks"
keep your big mouth shut
she'll fill in the blanks

show up late for dates
or don't come at all
tell gher she's a mess
make her feel small!

don't give her no slack!
keep her way off base

let the woman know that she can be replaced!


nice poem huh? there goes my chance with meeting girls...

Marketing, shmarketing

There's one thing I am completely bad at....marketing.. I hate it. I can't sell anything for nothing.. But nomatter how much I hate it. I want to learn it. This I believe is a skill one must have to succeed in this world. In fact, its not a skill one must acquire but "THE SKILL".. When you're good at it. you can sell crap for something.. don't kid yourself and say technical skill is more important. not in this dimension its not. its marketing. how did you think Bill Gates made the millions?? definitely not because he programmed an operating system..

breather

At this moment I am literally having a hard time breathing.... the lack of oxygen supply to the brain is making it a bit hard to think about what to write. mhen.. I never imagined how unpleasant it is to live in a house with people in the food business........