The taste

Sometimes I think I just have the weirdest taste in women.......

small talk

Sometimes I just don't get it with people. I feel like I've been left out with my socializing skills and I need a seminar. What's up with all these jokes? faking laughs is a bit tiring. Okay.. I'll do it for some of those single liners but..... hey, maybe Im just stupid.. since Im the only one not laughing here. Thank god for the beer. alcohol really takes out some of the stupidity in talk.

world became darker

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P.I.T.

Its dark in here. Im swimming in neck deep black sticky tar. can barely move. this fluid seems to pull me in everytime I try to get out. It seems alive. waiting for me to lose my strength before devouring me whole and pull me into its abyssmal depths..... I face my head north and see a tiny speck of light. the only thing I need before giving up all hope. a direction... a guide... like a map given to a lost traveler, more precious than water. this speck is so little like a dust. but so visible in the pitch black darkness. so I swim slowly, conserving my little left strength. still this light seems so far on the horizon. but I'll keep swimming, until I reach the light...........

Post sickness state

This week is finally over. and some things ended with it. one is the flu.

Have you ever felt that you are being a prick sometimes? last friday I did. I felt like I was in my own world. Everything sucked.. nothing is funny and every joke I heard was so damn corny. I felt like everything people was talking about were nonsense and a total waste of time. I felt like this all day and thankfully I didn't let anyone know what I thought. I just worked and avoided as much contact with people as possible.

what is it like to be a heretic

If you're 555 then Im 66 sick. (slipknot song)... this just came to my mind cause im sick right now. Took a half day leave today. Could'nt sleep last night coz my head really ached. This usually happens coz flu triggers my sinusitis. might as well relax myself by watching korean movies hehehe. yep. that's my thing right now. tragic, mushy, tearjerking korean movies where someone always dies in the end. Ill recommend some top picks.. first, Il mare, everyone has probably seen this. its remade with sandra bullock starring. second, Bunjee jumping off their own, yes, that is the title, you must watch this, its like gay stuff but not actually..my last recommendation is lover's concerto. the story is probably the most unlikely to happen in real life, its ridiculously tragic. but the characters are very interesting. adding to the effect is the fact that the cute actress starring in it has actually died from suicide.

so much things not happening

haven't been blogging much and there's only one reason why. nothing is happening. everyday is just the same....work, love, life. nope nothing happening with those. Well at least I got a bit of alchohol in my veins last friday...

I'm currently listening to a lot of the music of this band SAOSIN. for those who have'nt heard of them. I'll say they're one of those "emo" bands. not that it's a bad thing. To describe their sound. they're like thursday and taking back sunday but heavier. also a bit like finch with less screaming. The songs are usually about relationships. very fun to listen to. melodic and heavy at the same time. although I doubt I would still be listening to this stuff 2 months from now. check out the song You're not alone (very positive lyrics). also recommended cuts are voices, collapse, I can tell there was an acid, i never wanted to and my personal pick 3rd measurement in C.