Post sickness state

This week is finally over. and some things ended with it. one is the flu.

Have you ever felt that you are being a prick sometimes? last friday I did. I felt like I was in my own world. Everything sucked.. nothing is funny and every joke I heard was so damn corny. I felt like everything people was talking about were nonsense and a total waste of time. I felt like this all day and thankfully I didn't let anyone know what I thought. I just worked and avoided as much contact with people as possible.

what is it like to be a heretic

If you're 555 then Im 66 sick. (slipknot song)... this just came to my mind cause im sick right now. Took a half day leave today. Could'nt sleep last night coz my head really ached. This usually happens coz flu triggers my sinusitis. might as well relax myself by watching korean movies hehehe. yep. that's my thing right now. tragic, mushy, tearjerking korean movies where someone always dies in the end. Ill recommend some top picks.. first, Il mare, everyone has probably seen this. its remade with sandra bullock starring. second, Bunjee jumping off their own, yes, that is the title, you must watch this, its like gay stuff but not actually..my last recommendation is lover's concerto. the story is probably the most unlikely to happen in real life, its ridiculously tragic. but the characters are very interesting. adding to the effect is the fact that the cute actress starring in it has actually died from suicide.

so much things not happening

haven't been blogging much and there's only one reason why. nothing is happening. everyday is just the same....work, love, life. nope nothing happening with those. Well at least I got a bit of alchohol in my veins last friday...

I'm currently listening to a lot of the music of this band SAOSIN. for those who have'nt heard of them. I'll say they're one of those "emo" bands. not that it's a bad thing. To describe their sound. they're like thursday and taking back sunday but heavier. also a bit like finch with less screaming. The songs are usually about relationships. very fun to listen to. melodic and heavy at the same time. although I doubt I would still be listening to this stuff 2 months from now. check out the song You're not alone (very positive lyrics). also recommended cuts are voices, collapse, I can tell there was an acid, i never wanted to and my personal pick 3rd measurement in C.

the rain has come

The rainy season has finally come. 2 tropical typhoons droping buckets of water to the ground. With all this water also came a wind of confusion......

scenario: I was sitting in my desk, doing what I was supposed to do... tracing functions and stuff.. I looked to my right. I saw something, something I have always seen before but have never seen (hehehe). Everything so simple is now... not..... humpty dumpty can't be put back together again

uchi e kaeritai

it means, i want to go home.. things here in manila are a bit going down.. first, my job is getting uninteresting, Im begining to have doubts about my growth in this company I am working for. That's because I'm currently involved in a project I don't have any interest in. Second is this place where I live in. its very unpleasant and Im having trouble agreeing with some policies. then theres the traffic, the people, the food, the lcd advertisement inside buses, the shity music on the radio, the long long lines... its during times like this that I miss my hometown most. my family, my house, our dogs, the food (in hefty servings not like here), my friends, the music, the live gigs, strolling in our small mall..........

a bad day

the day started like this. so I got in the office pretty early today. I opened the pc, read the mail and saw a notice from our logbox (yep our loxbox does that), it said, I was unable to login yesterday and I was considered absent. I said "there must be something I can do about this". So I went to my manager and asked him what I could do. the look on his face was not that pleasant, he was like.. "try to go to the hr". so I did. I went to our hr and asked what I could do. to my surprise. there was nothing I could do to revoke what happened. I was like $#!%. so I donated a whole days work is that it?........(okay, I said something more polite).. she said there was nothing she could do. Man. I felt mixed emotions. I got back to my desk feeling stupid, sorry (I kind of gave an impolite gesture to our hr), and angry, not knowing at who I was angry with. So I tried to review our online policy page like a lawyer trying to find a hole in the system. and there it said that if in case you forget to login, you will be considered absent ... okay then, no use crying over spilled milk.

scrapes and scapes

here's some view to get the mood down